awakening

Toward four in the morning
While hands of clock move every second, regularly, as usual
Create sounds that keeping people awake
Determine to do his duty to remind
Existence of myself

12 glasses of unoaked chardonnary is mastering me
Ditch my ego unnecessarily
Vascular system fills up with slides of cloud
As light as i can fly

Gazing down
A pair of seagulls hover around
Strokes by freedom, strokes by love

Not a chance to keep my eye close, my brain rest
Bittersweet still triggers my heart beat
Until blood runs cold, breathe upholds

Touch with our lips deport unaffordable yearning
To demolish yourself
To destroy my soul
The way you hate yourself is the same way i hate myself
The way you love me would not have been the same way i love you

The hair, the ears, the lips, the fingers, the abs, the thighs diffuse
Diffusing present and past
Forever and ever
Or it never last

新年快樂

for 2009

1月1日，清早醒來，卻懶在床上
不想，亦不願去面對好像是從新開始的一年
謝謝你提醒我
這一年我必須充滿著歡樂
為甚麼必須，我不知道

這一個月，我抽了生平最多支煙
至少感覺上是多至不能承受的

忽然，我想我這一生也充滿著關係
沒完沒了
愛情，激情，親情，感情
游離於快樂與哀傷

多少的愛情轉化為感情，變成了終身的關係
我的生命就建立在關係上
男對男，女對女，男對女，女對男
對了，男對男的還未真正嘗試過
我嘗試自私，但我做不到
我是感情豐富，還是愛情豐富呢
這一生，就糾纏在關係的窩子裹

究竟我缺失了什麼
為什麼我那麼喜歡暖昧的關係

吻你，吻他，吻自己
多少個是夢，多少個是真實
完美的愛，不倫的夢
我追尋飄在空氣中的愛的感覺
愛滴血，愛痛心，愛不道德，愛不認同
愛與痛苦燃燒才能產生氧氣
沒有氧氣我怎能生存

抱我吧
我很懷念那種感覺
像耶穌背負著十字架的沉重鞭撻
神聖的懲罰

我愛寧靜，卻戀上破壞寧靜的魔鬼
雙子座是我的月亮星座
兩個我，同時在仇視和熱戀
其實中間沒有界線

愛我吧，但你會痛苦得要死
不如我愛上自己吧
那便會讓自己痛苦得要死
應驗世上最後一個魔鬼的惡咒
了結自己可能是一種解脫
期待那天的夢比今天更甜

whiteness

for Marco


20
200
2000
20000
endless height
top of hills
fierce sun turns pure blue blood white
merges with tears and sweats

naked hand naked body naked heart naked white

i almost touch
the burning planet
heart stops
chest burns

off my hand

i can't climb
freefall further
loose legs loose hands
eyes, ears, flesh and blood ... out of my body

down
down there
no follow me
untouchable deepness
light performs meaningless

love you i can't
sleep well white sheep
kiss you i dream
unforgettable whiteness

oxford art dictionary

http://www.enotes.com/oxford-art-encyclopedia/gogh-vincent-van

cape no.7

do you
ever
find love

have you
ever
tasted the pain

dear teacher
many years you have been lived with someone
with someone else in your heart

love is far so close
life builds on regret

fluttering in the stomach
tightness in the chest
the same restlessness, the same yawning, soundless
cos you could let no one know
a warm family overlapping loneliness heart

80 years
with the cruelest marine tears behind your
7 letters
7 grief sketch

your unfaithfulness is the most faithfulness response
you are true to love
her or
her

80 years, here and now
a deceitfulness create the impulse
to find the owner of love
returning the grieving letter to her

does
cheating creates love
or
the continuous of love depends on kindliest cheating

should i hold or should i go
how many times have you asked in your life

so boooooooooring

copy and paste, copy and paste and copy and paste
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c
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p
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c
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p
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c
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c
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c
o
p
y a love
copy a copied copy for what

dripping brain soon die
the last breath
deep one
my love
copy your life

author credit: the above is 100% copy from my brain

Forbidden Fruit

Forbidden fruit I & II Emily Dickinson

I
Forbidden fruit a flavour Has
That lawful orchards mocks;
How luscious lies the pea within
The pod that duty locks!

II
Heaven is what I cannot reach!
The apple on the tree,
Provided it do hopeless hang,
That ‘heaven’ is, to me.

The colour on the cruising cloud
The interdicted ground
Behind the hill, the house behind—
There paradise is found!